My Heart On The Outside
I Love You More On November 19, 2019, I walked into a tattoo parlor to get my first tattoo. I wanted a tribute to my son whom I could no longer physically share with the world. I wanted a conversation starter, so that I could tell people who Caleb is when they asked...
My Dearest Caleb…
I’ve really struggled with whether or not I wanted to share this letter. I’ve been writing it on and off for about eight months. My therapist suggested early on that I write Caleb two letters, one for what I would say when I got home that night and we continued our...
Broken Hearts, Faithful Prayer
Feeling destroyed but hopeful, I prayed for God to give me a sign that he sees me, that he can hear me, that he knows I'm suffering and that he is with me. It was October 21, 2019, the 70th day since Caleb had died and I prayed specifically for him to send me signs...
A Letter to Myself
Dear mom who did everything right but your child died anyway, I watched you on Sunday, August 18, 2019, trembling as you locked the front door that evening. It was the first night you would sleep in your house in seven days. You didn’t want to lock the door because...
A one-in-a-million Brotherhood
As Caleb was growing up, I often prayed for positive, encouraging and loyal friends to be in his life. Being a military family we moved every 2-3 years and the kids were always forced to make new friends. To his benefit, he wasn’t shy, he was friendly, outgoing and...
The Forgotten Mourners
After Caleb died I was so consumed with grief and suffering that I could not see the pain and heartbreak that these two were feeling. I couldn’t be a mom to them...I spent weeks on the couch lost in sorrow with boxes of tissues. I’m thankful for friends and family who...
Forever a family of 5
This blog became an idea several months ago as I was using my Facebook page as a way to share my grief and give updates about how we were doing after the sudden death of my son. I realized quickly that my grief, pain and sadness needed a place to go. The more I wrote,...
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