Holding on and Letting Go

Holding on and Letting Go

While this post is about how I have held onto and let go of my son’s tangible things, It’s also about how I’ve held on and let go emotionally.  There is a strong pull in my heart and a choice I have to make daily, do I want to stay stuck in the past with Caleb or go...
My Heart On The Outside

My Heart On The Outside

I Love You More On November 19, 2019, I walked into a tattoo parlor to get my first tattoo.  I wanted a tribute to my son whom I could no longer physically share with the world.  I wanted a conversation starter, so that I could tell people who Caleb is when they asked...
Broken Hearts, Faithful Prayer

Broken Hearts, Faithful Prayer

Feeling destroyed but hopeful, I prayed for God to give me a sign that he sees me, that he can hear me, that he knows I’m suffering and that he is with me.  It was October 21, 2019, the 70th day since Caleb had died and I prayed specifically for him to send me...
A one-in-a-million Brotherhood

A one-in-a-million Brotherhood

As Caleb was growing up, I often prayed for positive, encouraging and loyal friends to be in his life. Being a military family we moved every 2-3 years and the kids were always forced to make new friends.  To his benefit, he wasn’t shy, he was friendly, outgoing and...
The Forgotten Mourners

The Forgotten Mourners

After Caleb died I was so consumed with grief and suffering that I could not see the pain and heartbreak that these two were feeling. I couldn’t be a mom to them…I spent weeks on the couch lost in sorrow with boxes of tissues. I’m thankful for friends and family...