A Journey for Caleb

Welcome to my Blog – here I share my journey through grief after the untimely and devastating death of my firstborn child and only son on August 12, 2019. My journey through parenting two daughters in the wake of tragedy and how I’m reinventing my purpose during unavoidable suffering.  With faith, hope and courage, I share how I’m rebuilding my life, healing and processing the pain of child loss. 

From The Blog

18 Months Without Caleb: The Cornerstone

18 Months Without Caleb: The Cornerstone

18 Months Without Caleb: The Cornerstone   On February 12, 2021, the 18 month anniversary since Caleb went to Heaven, my husband and I drove 6 hours to Barry, Illinois to attend a ‘While We’re Waiting’ retreat for bereaved parents.  While I was desperately...

My ABC’s of Coping With – and Moving Through – Trauma and Grief

My ABC’s of Coping With – and Moving Through – Trauma and Grief

A storm came, went and left me with an unrecognizable life.  When tragedy struck out of nowhere, I wasn’t given a handbook on what comes next.  The natural responses of panic, shock, numbness, confusion, sadness, depression, anxiety and fatigue, took over every part...

The Caleb Cares Project: Showing Love, Kindness & Hope

The Caleb Cares Project: Showing Love, Kindness & Hope

Our first Christmas Project, December 2020   I’m looking in the rearview mirror and sharing how The Caleb Cares Project blessed a family at Christmastime.  Caleb fell in love with these kiddos in the Summer of 2017 when he volunteered with his youth group in...

10 Truths I Learned About Myself In 2020: Life After Child Loss

10 Truths I Learned About Myself In 2020: Life After Child Loss

2020 will be the first calendar year that I will have lived without my firstborn child and only son, Caleb, who died unexpectedly on August 12, 2019.  He didn't get to graduate with the Class of 2020, He didn't get to vote for the first time and we didn't get to drop...

A Thrill Of Hope, My Weary Soul Rejoices

A Thrill Of Hope, My Weary Soul Rejoices

Have you ever found yourself in an unfathomable moment? A moment when you had no idea how life would or could go on? An appointment when you learned your loved one has cancer? Your hopes of holding your newborn baby crumble at the sound of a silent ultrasound? The day...

YOU Are A Big Deal Around Here!

YOU Are A Big Deal Around Here!

If you’re a living, breathing human you don’t need to know the actual statistic to know that a lot of people attempt or die from suicide every minute of every day.  You also don't have to have lost someone you know to suicide to “know” the pain and devastation that it...

Surviving The Holidays After Child Loss

Surviving The Holidays After Child Loss

As I endure the second holiday season without my oldest child, I wanted to share about my experience last year.  Thanksgiving came just 3 1/2 months after he died, and all I wanted to do was crawl in a hole and hide until the season was over.  In November and December...

How Do I Live Without You?

How Do I Live Without You?

A few days ago I made it through the 450th day as a bereaved mother, the day I took this photo.  If I’m going to share how much pain I’m in, I might as well show it.  I came home from a hard day and went straight to my deck.  I needed to clear my head, feel the fresh...

Holding on and Letting Go

Holding on and Letting Go

While this post is about how I have held onto and let go of my son’s tangible things, It’s also about how I’ve held on and let go emotionally.  There is a strong pull in my heart and a choice I have to make daily, do I want to stay stuck in the past with Caleb or go...

My Heart On The Outside

My Heart On The Outside

I Love You More On November 19, 2019, I walked into a tattoo parlor to get my first tattoo.  I wanted a tribute to my son whom I could no longer physically share with the world.  I wanted a conversation starter, so that I could tell people who Caleb is when they asked...

“Going back is not an option.   I know I must find my way forward.  How do I do that when my loss is so devastating and grief is so heavy?  I wake up each day and do my best to put one foot in front of the other and do the next right thing while leaving everything I don’t know, to the One who knows it all. Is this easy? Not in the least! The grief, pain and sadness is suffocating, but breath by breath and step by step I’m learning how to live in the balance of mourning and living, despair and joy and grief and gratitude.”

– Chrisy Slate

10 Comments

  1. Lisa jordan

    Joe just know you and your family is loved. The family you have is amazingly beautiful. I love you all so much and Caleb will live on through you all forever.

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    • Chrisy Slate

      Thank you

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  2. Heather Fullington

    Well, I’m so proud of you and excited to read all about this journey. My heart aches for all you’ve been through and all you’ve lost, but at the same time, I’m cheering for you as you relentlessly move forward to use every joy and every pain to bring glory to Jesus. I wish I had known Caleb and I’m thankful, that through you, I can know him now. He will continue to live through all of you and his life is certainly honored through all of you. All my love. ❤️

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    • Chrisy Slate

      Thank you, Heather

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  3. Marla

    I love you & your precious family. So excited about this website.

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    • Chrisy Slate

      Thank you, xoxo

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  4. Ann kish

    Want you to know that you and your family are in my prayers

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    • Chrisy Slate

      Thank you

      Reply
  5. Becky

    I listened to your podcasts today both of them. They meant so much to me as I lost my 23 year old daughter Abbie March 2, 2021. She was like your son in that she had no outward signs of depression had spent the morning working, texting me and her friends and even made plans to get together with me for an exercise class at 5 that night. Your words and encouragement helped me a lot. I have learned to trust my faith and depend on friends and family to get through this nightmare. Thanks for sharing your experience.

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    • Chrisy Slate

      Becky, I’m sorry that you now know this devastating pain and heartache. Thanking you for reaching out and for your kind words and encouragement. My heart and prayers are with you as you navigate the difficult days of grief.

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